Every once in a while, you have these moments you know will define you. Mark you. Change you forever. This was one of those for me. I had the crazy, amazing, life-altering privilege of singing in the Heaven Come Conference with Bethel Music this year. And wow. Just… wow. There is something indescribable about being in a room of 6,500 people singing out to the Creator at the top of their lungs. I mean, come on. You can check out a little of that night in the video. And you’ll see my little mug anytime they zoom in on Jenn Johnson (go figure).
I’ve sung on many stages, for crowds around the country. I’ve sung with some of the greats in my industry. But this night—it wasn’t about me. It wasn’t about Bethel. It was about the big picture. It was about surrendering to Heaven here on Earth. It was about reminding our hearts that there’s more—a great tapestry, and we are the threads. It’s colorful, it’s intricate, and it’s still on the loom.
I had an out-of-body moment, looking up and around me at the thousands of faces—the thousands of stories in that room. All I could think was, “What the heck am I doing here? How did I get here?” All those years, chasing a dream I thought was mine, and then without trying, without asking, a door was opened for me. A bucket list kind of night handed to me. And in that moment, I knew I wouldn’t have cared if I had been on the other side looking on the stage instead. I was just glad to be there. Glad to be singing my guts out to my Creator. Glad to be letting him know that I haven’t forgotten him. None of us had. And we’d sing for him forever—for the sake of the world.