Faith that Moves Mountains

I want to have faith that moves mountains. I don’t want to be one of those Christians that always talks about “overcoming.” I want to be one of those Christians that always looks on the bright side, always focuses on the positive, always thinks there’s a way. Not that we don’t need to “overcome” now and then. But on this side of salvation, I think there comes a point when we need to stop looking back and thinking “that was tough” and start looking forward and saying “let’s do this!” It’s inevitable – we will face challenges. I think we’ve established that pretty firmly. So why focus on them? Why not focus on what can be done instead of what will get in our way?

Just my two cents for today.

Willing to Go Anywhere

Sometimes things change in a matter of minutes.

See, I had this idea. This exact idea of where I was going, how my life would look, where I wanted to end up. I tend to plan. I’m a planner, a big-picture person. I like to look far, far into the future and say, “that’s where I’m going.” This is great except for one little problem. The details. You know the old saying, “the devil’s in the details?” Well nothing could be more true for me. I always overlook the details. I always forget one small, crucial aspect of this or that, which usually drastically changes everything. Every time.

But sometimes, it’s the very details that lead me in a new, better direction than I thought I needed to go. And that’s what is happening for me right now.

And it got me thinking… Am I willing to go where He wants me to go? Am I willing to do what He wants me to do? And most importantly, do I get out of the way enough to make sure I’m following HIM and not my idea of him? See, that’s how it is that God knows me better than I know myself. He lets the details be the thing that gets me back to Him. (Perhaps I should change the phrase to: “The Lord is in the details.” haha) I’ll get this grandiose vision for what, who, when, how, and why. And He, perfectly, every time, reminds me that HE is in control. HE has the vision. HE directs the course. At least, that’s what I asked Him to do. 🙂

So my friends, I want to encourage you. Dream big. Let your mind wander. Think of things you would never dare. Let your imagination run wild. And then let God take you where He wants you to go. Let Him show you what about your dream was worth having and what was not. Let Him shape your destiny. It’s worth it, I assure you.

Dream on, my friends.

This one’s for you

Two years ago today I lost my dear friend, Stacy. She was without a doubt the most incredible person I’ve ever known. I miss her dearly. I wrote this song for her two years ago today. This one’s for you, Stacy.

I’ve got a surprise for you…

I’ve been working on a song in the studio that no one has ever heard before. I’ve never played it live. I played it for my husband once about 6 months ago, but he doesn’t remember it. hahaha! And I’ll be sharing it with you all soon. Hint: it’s about a very small person. 😀

There is no normal life…

…There’s just life. I love that quote from the movie Tombstone. (I happen to be a descendant of Wyatt Earp, just FYI. Well actually of his brother Virgil. Pretty cool, right?) There is no normal life. So true. I think we look for it all the time. I think a lot of times we think that “as soon as this and this happens, things will be on track.” And maybe they will be. But in my experience, we rarely get what we think we want. And even when we do, it’s either not exactly right or not exactly what we thought it would be.

I’ve been facing this challenge in my own life. And having a kid puts everything in a whole new perspective. Going where I want to go and doing what I want to do brings a whole new set of challenges. It’s definitely not what I thought it would be. But that by no means makes it “bad.” If I’ve learned one thing it’s that life is full of surprises. Forrest Gump’s mom was right – life is like a box of chocolates. You never know what you’re gonna get. (Am I on a movie quoting roll today or what?) And the thing is, it’s not what you face, but how you face it that defines you. No one can completely control their life and circumstances. No one can set a goal and watch it come to fruition exactly as they anticipated. There is always some curve ball, some challenge we didn’t expect. So instead of moping in our misery over failures and disappointments, why don’t we use what we’ve learned as an opportunity to move forward a little wiser? Seems like a good plan to me.

Who’s ready to face a challenge or two head on today? Let’s hear it for the determined!

Are You Dumb Enough?

I recently had a long conversation with a family member about what it takes to be successful. She’s been dealing with some pretty heavy stuff in her life, namely the challenge of finding oneself and figuring out what to do from there. She asked me what I had done to be successful.

I always find this question funny. You see, I’ve been in the music industry now for over ten years. I started humbly in my little Baptist church youth group band and have followed a meager path through the brambles and tendrils of the jungle we call being a musician ever since. There have been highs and lows, successes and failures. But by no measure would I say that I’m “there.” I do not feel that I’ve “made it” or have been what I think the world would generally consider successful. Yet my family member was not the first person to think of me as such.

So I explained to her what has taken me almost thirty years to figure out (yes, I’m admitting my age proudly). I’m just dumb enough to keep going.

Even in the face of family members asking me what I’m “really” going to do with my life. Even knowing that most people would consider someone my age silly and immature to have a band and pursue that dream seriously. I still pursue. I still dream. I still try. I’m just dumb enough to believe that I can do it. And I don’t think it’s crazy. I KNOW it’s crazy. But it hasn’t stopped me yet.

And now, as a mother, I know that even more-so, people are going to patronize me to my face and secretly think I’m nuts when I say, “I quit my job for my band.” Yeah, I had a day job. And I can honestly say that it was the biggest mistake I made in my pursuit of a career in music. The day job kept me from being hungry. It kept me from doing whatever it took because my bills were paid. I wasn’t desperate. But when I got pregnant last year, I knew without a doubt that I wanted to raise my son and be home with him. So it was no question to me that I would leave my day job to do so. But in making that decision I realized I had finally given myself the opportunity to live in the kind of faith I always preach about. Reckless-abandoned faith. The kind that moves mountains. I now have no choice but to pursue music with every effort I have. And the challenge is even bigger now than it was when I was single. Or even when I was married with no children. It will probably seem impossible to some.

But not to me. I’m just dumb enough to think that I can do this. That it’s worth the struggle.

And I believe that it is this kind of “stupidity” that God rewards. I see it in my life every day, at every turn, with every new challenge. So I ask you, friend. Are you dumb enough to think that your dreams can come true? Are you dumb enough to live with the kind of faith that could make them happen? Maybe you and I can take a leap of faith together and just see what this God we serve is capable of. Oh what an adventure it will be!